Sometimes, I cannot stand it anymore.. I really want to confront that person.. however after that talk.. all it did was make me feel worse.. I wish that I did not have any knowledge of it.. Why did you even tell it to me?!.. are you just trying to make my heart twist into many knots?.. well then allow me to tell you this.. its working.. I'm finding it more and more difficult each day to keep my composure around you..

ahahahas.. today at the mrt station, when the train arrived, it let out a really sharp, loud and most importantly sudden noise. Wow.. its stupid, yet funny.. hahas I remember the feeling of the shock.. ><

I haven even done the RJ yet.. hahas its stupid la the RJ.. predictable, boring and stupid.. it does not make me interested to do it at all.

I'm really afraid as to how the matter will turn out on Monday.. will I have the courage to make it happen? Will it change to the worst possible situation? Or will I once again just run away from it.. though I understand the regret I felt when I ran away from a situation that is similar to now, I'm still considering running away.. haiz.. maybe I should talk to the others about it.. I'm feeling so lost.. so empty.. so confused.. so sad..

WISH ME LUCK!~