Hi =)... hmm i dun noe why but i feel as if my parents are like.. caring for me?.. okay people who read this should be thinking right now, 'Which parent/s on the earth will not care for their child' but in my case it is different.. you see, my parents I know that they do love me but then many many times, they dun care about me, about how I feel and everything that revolves over me.. ever since I got a good O'level result, I feel as if the way that they treat me is different, although it is not in a bad way but still, I dun like the attention that I am getting, now people must be thinking, 'Why shouldn't you be happy that your parents are showering concerns over you, you should be happy right..' WRONG, its totally wrong...... I feel very pressurized by their actions and trust me, I dun really handle pressure very well.. an example is, when i was taking my prelims, they gave me so much stress, my english teacher everyday also say that our class confirm go ITE blah blah blah and my class mentors are like putting so much pressure on me, asking me to go take tution.. I HATE TUTION.. no reasons why but everytime I get tution, my results instead of improving, gets worser.................... dotz... in the end, for my first and second prelims.. I failed, badly.. thats why everybody treated me like a hopeless case, my parents were like saying that if I fail, they will not allow me to continue studying anymore, its really pressurizing, but after they saw my prelim marks they were like........... nothing to say...... they just left me by myself......... and bcuz they stopped pressurizing me, my results improved, drastically... that time during CNY, I learnt that my cousin got 14 points for L1R4, which is real good but cuz he got tution, my aunt and uncle was like they suddenly treated me like a threat to their son......................... dotz.......... at first i thought that it is all over..... but now, my parents are putting even more pressure on me.. now even my aunts and uncles are putting pressure on me and my cousin... cuz my cousin studied express stream and now he in studying in temasak poly.. so 3 yrs later during CNY, they are definately going to compare my and my cousin's result........... I dun understand it......... why must they compare......... everybody is different, we dun work the same way as others....... so why..... haiz.... I guess this is a question that I will never have an answer for........
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alright.... tmr need to bring thermometer...... sianz.......... fortunately i already hunted it down... so dun have to worry bout it =).........
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for my bdae party thingy, my parents say they wanna help me book a chalet.. but it is at my old hometown Pasir Ris... personally, I will not mind going there but I need to consider about the others... for most of them, including myself, it is like taking the train from the west all the way to the east... pasir ris... both sweet and bitter memories are contained there... frankly, I dun even know if I have the courage to return back there, and lets just leave it at that.........
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lol super long post =) truth is I only wanted to post a few pictures of my dinner yesterday, but in the end... lol ... alright i am going to end the post with the pictures =)
My brother's lovely noodles...... lol i also ate a small bowl of it but believe me DUN TRY IT if you cherish your life ><
The Sauce used for the noodles... look at it, so thick and black... reminds me of tar......
Another lovely picture of the sauce nice huh =P
My dinner, bread with margarine and a burger meat with a mayo smiley face =)
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