I am so glad... so glad that monday we gotta go school... why?... lets just say I prefer spending time with my classmates.. I mean with my FRIENDS.. yes you dun have to rub your eyes wondering if you are seeing things... I mean it, I do treat them as friends.. but now the hardest part about it is to really think through some things...

FRIENDS - Having them means you are exposing yourself to hurt, unhappiness, betrayal, and so much more... but then again, having friends also means that you are allowing yourself to be happy.. okay.. perhaps I might still be trying to convince myself that.. but the most impt thing is that now, I have given myself a chance.. 

Hahaz.. although on thurs, I keep on saying that I wanna change my sci group, the truth is, I dun mean it.. I really like my team members.. I appreciate them and their uniqueness.. seriously.. I mean it.. everybody is unique right.. hahaz... but i know it is unadvoidable.. soon, we will all change teams.. but still, I hold some hope that most of my team members will stay with me in the same team.. the reason why i say most instead of all is because I know that nothing is perfect, you cannot have everything in this world.. so yah.. you get the picture..

On thurs, I will not say the reason and although you told me not to but still, 

THANKS SO MUCH SAMUEL, PERHAPS YOU MIGHT NEVER UNDERSTAND IT BUT YOUR WORDS, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM IS REALLY REALLY MEANINGFUL TO ME... YOU REALLY GAVE ME HOPE.. THANK YOU, I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO HELP ME..

So now, for the climax.. as you all know, today I went to collect my report from the doctor... It was terrible, the suspense almost killed me... besides that I was not feeling too good today.. and sitting in a stuffy room waiting for the doctor to hand me my report did not help.. you know, I was really afraid to look at the report.. I did not wanna look at it, I wish that I can just throw it into the rubbish bin.. but if I did that then I will never know the result right... so yah... I looked at it already, and.. I... I am one of the luckest people in the world.. cuz the report said that my nerves were already strengthing to a point that it might be as strong as a normal's person nerve at the eye.. hahaha.. I dun know what to say.. I am like so happy.. so so happy that I cannot put my happiness down in words.. at first, I really wanted to find somebody to share my joy with me, but it is at that point when I felt so.. alone.. I felt like there is nobody in this world who truly cares about me... I felt so lost, so miserable, so lonely...